You know sometimes when a person advise you on certain stuffs, it doesn't leave you any impact in your brain.
But when a certain person gives the advise, oh man, suddenly you feel it's time to do it and take action.
Why is that so? I have no idea. Maybe the person meant something or it could be solely due to the time and moment the advise was give.
It's time to do it and not prolong it much further. No regrets.
I just realise I'm afraid of many things.
From a tiny flying cockroach to height phobia.
I'm afraid of floating in the sea. As I'm unable to touch the ground.
I'm afraid unable to foresee the future. Duh! That's why it's known as future.
I'm afraid of exams.
I'm afraid of failing and disappointing other people but not myself. It's like I'm living my life for the sake of others.
I'm afraid I'll turn into a selfish and materialistic bitch.
I'm afraid being alone even though on surface I've many friends.
I'm realise I don't like complicated relationships but it's part of the parcel.
I want to share but currently I'm unable to find the person to tell the whole thing. I want to be able to put my real face. Unfortunately that can't be done. I think the only time I'm able to let out the real me is when I'm alone and surrounded by strangers. That's when you don't care about the strangers judgment.
I'm a two-face human.
How? Many times a person would ask a question starting 'how'. The word sometimes irritate me a lot. How are you? How is life? How is everyone? But I frequently ask the how question whenever I see someone.
Do you realise when we answer the how question. The answer somehow is the same everytime or we never give the true statement to it.
Eg: How are you? I'm fine/good/great. --> But the truth is, it's not really good or great at all. Fine/great/good is like we had summaries the whole day and deleting the bad stuffs and it looks fine. So we said: I'm fine. Maybe it's just me.
Or maybe I don't want to say all the stuffs in mind (bad or good) to a person we hardly meet or anyone we meet/talk through any form of communication. The person might think I'm a freak or a total mess.
The how question is usually asked for the sake of asking or for courtesy. It's also the best way to start any form of communication. Right?
Usually we get the how from a hie-bye person or a person we seldom meet but had a good history back during the younger times. The answer for this how for me is never entirely true. I'll just scope the surface of my life and say the typical answer: I'm fine/Busy with work. Selfish person I am.
So please try to ask less how. And don't ask other people's life how are they when in fact I seldom talk about them. Too many hows make me sick. Hmmm...maybe I should start doing that myself.
The moon is pretty huge, round and bright. Looks gorgeous. Even the morning sky was really beautiful today. Right now the air is really hot and stagnant.
I'm currently back at hometown. Using my younger bro's laptop. My 2nd's sis's pc had 'mati' a few months ago. Celcom broadband connection is pretty slow. Loading a page takes forever. *Sigh*
The only thing that is running to my mind is: IT IS BLOODY HOT!! It's draining away my energy.
Made me not in the mood to study and read my book for my coming exam. Hmmm. So screw. Still have 3 more chapters to read.
Been falling asleep on the sofa in the morning and after lunch. Hehehe... Best medicine is to read a boring book and soon will lead you to la la land. I'm actually feeling sleeping now too. Damn. I can't be sleeping off my weekend.
Yeah Monday is a off for me. Took leave to be a good girl to study for my exam. Can't be a lazy bum.
Long absence due to work. Finally I'm getting my break to go to Redang! YES!!!
Hopefully I'll be back with much beautiful energy. Compare to now, I'm radiating bad energy force.
I have a new song from Pink.
It's : Please don't leave me.
An emo song. Somehow I feel the song. Makes me feel sad.
Here is the lyrics. No video for the song yet.
Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da da-da da
Do you know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
da da da da-da
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is....broken
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry.
Da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please, please don't leave me
Baby please don't leave me
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back,
It's gonna come right back to this.
Please, don't leave me.
No.
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
Here is how the song sound like. Please dont leave me.
My friend was very nice enough to drive me all the way to Little Genting for a dinner. There are a few restaurants at that place. Before that, we got lost once on the way but we were right back on track to our destination! It was quite far.
We ate at Lookout Point Restaurant. Hmmm...wont really suggest you all to go and eat. I think Gasoline is not too bad. The view is great but not so breathe taking at all. The environment was chilly and there was mist just little in Genting. Maybe Genting is a little colder. It is actually a tourist spot! Not a bad place to escape to during the night.
Here are the night view pictures I took. Not putting up any food pic coz it didnt turn out nice. So here is the night view! No touch up done. Do tell leave comments!
Looks pretty similiar. ^__^. The second pic is a bit blur! Dang!!
Rainy rainy day is a cold freezing day in office.
Rainy rainy day makes my tummy ache even worse.
Rainy rainy day makes me want to sleep under a comforter.
Rainy rainy day makes me lazy bum!
p/s: I have the right to be lazy, I've been overtime for the past few weeks and this week will be the same too. Even on a Sat!!!
Here are some pictures taken using my camera hp. Some are pretty bad. Some are really pretty! You all be the judge!
First up is to do with food!
Celebrated a farewell lunch for a super duper senior in a restaurant in Pavilion.
Cup used by my senior. Weird looking shape. 
That's a very big portion of sushi. So-so only.
My cheesy seafood rice.
Spicy chicken.
Pic taken using my friend's camera which is also a sony ericson but with flash built in.
Next up is animal!
This is JD! 
JD going all whirly twirly. ^__^
This is a car. DUH! But guess origin for what type of car!
Thats all for now!
I'm sure you all get what i mean. Been falling sick very easily. What happen to my immune system man!!??
I have been working overtime for this whole month. My routine starts with: Wake up about 6plus, get ready to work, reach office bout 8am, start work till 7.30pm, off work..walk to KLCC station, reaching home bout 8.30pm. Sleep about 10pm. Tah DAH!! Thats my life for this month!! INTERESTING??!!
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I'm sneezing none stop. Just caught the bug this morning. >___<
Ahhhhhh..ahhhh..chhhheeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww!! More tissue please.
SUPER DUPER busy!
No time for any updates because i'm so late for my sis dateline.
Went back home last weekend and met up with my old high school friends. Don't even know when will I be seeing them again.
No time to write much. Ta!
Things looks normal for the surface but within it’s all so messed up. Actually it’s not that messed up but because of wanting to make everything looks so nice and pleasant for everyone, it gets all so hay-wired for the owner. The problem is that not everyone have the same taste in things, which makes it so difficult to please everyone. The owner of the display should have the right of placing the items on the display but somehow passer-bys will leave many remarks which make the owner thinking for so long and deep. Some passer-bys will say it’s your display, do it how you like and don’t think to hard and long. Some passer-bys will keep reminding the owner that don’t hide the items but certain items can’t b displayed so openly as it might not be liken by themselves. It’s so difficult right? Just one simple display can get so complicated. So complicated that the owner rather make it so simple on the display and hide all the things which are beautiful to the owner.
Got the above statement from a colleague when she was sharing her thoughts to me. Sigh! I tired to give my advice but I don’t know if things can get better. That’s why it’s so susah to be with humans..rather be with animals. Hehehe..They can’t talk to you at all. So no worries to share. Hahaha.
Fingers are starting to freeze again. Need to exercise them.
I went back to my hometown last weekend. I got to eat my granny’s zhang! Wasn’t able to buy bus ticket for Friday night as most of the tickets to go anywhere were totally sold out!! CRAZY! And there was this guy, don’t know which bus company; he was actually selling the bus ticket for BLOODY RM35 to get back to Muar! I was like…WTF!!! Some insane humans bought the last two tickets. I guessed these people were taking the advantage of price hike on diesel by selling expensive bus fare! I had no choice but to get ticket for Saturday. Bought the 9am bus ticket. The bloody bus company was selling RM16 to get back to Muar where the original price was RM12.30. BLOODY HELL!! The pricing on the ticket was still stated RM12.30 yet they are selling it for RM16. ARSEHOLE!! Should I mention the bus company? Hmmm. It starts with ‘H.’ I guess Muarians would know the company I’m mentioning.
I had to go back because my granny had made the Zhang for me. Can’t just waste them.
Got back home…the first thing I did was, of course chatted with my granny and had lunch in front of the PC and watched Ugly betty last 2 episodes. I wonder what would happen to her. My conclusion is that when the next season starts, she would appear really pretty and goes back to work in Mode and no one could recognize her and Daniel would get back to the company and try to get back from Willimina ( Is this how we spell her name?).
After the show, had to wash my pitiful looking fish tank. My tank had 4 pitiful goldfish. SAD SAD me! Hehehe.
Then I was hogging the PC again to check my facebook. Wait before that, I ate Zhang!! Wait, I didn’t had time to facebook. I remembered Bchan saying the first time she saw me was me eating when she entered my granny house. She said I was a greedy pig! Hey, I’m not ok!! That was my first…wait my second la..you don’t count Kee Zhang as bak Zhang ok…so it’s still my first Zhang okay Miss Bchan!!! You probably had more Zhang then me!! BLUK!! After that we were munching preservative fruits in front of the PC! Sounds like a greedy bum? We hogged the PC for a while and got downstairs and chatted with our 2nd sis regarding her wedding day. Oh by the way, our theme for the morning is YELLOW..for those tak tahu yet! Hehehe..She will tell you all but me kepoh, so I’m informing to you earlier. You (Zer and Yan) will probably know it. I had to ask her myself too. I think she terlupa la. Then we were munching peanuts with wasabi. At first we couldn’t find the wasabi ones then 2nd sis found it for us. She said we were bodoh! We munched and chatted. Alien Drian was sleeping like pig. Hahaha.
Then on Sun, had to take the 9am bus back! DAMN early!! Poor me! But I brought back Zhangs for my housemates and friends. Had Zhang for lunch!!! Hehehe. No pictures of the Zhang at all. Sorry! >_<
Ja-ne!
Today is Teacher’s Day!
Faster grab your mobile phone to text or call to wish your primary, secondary, college, form 6, matriculation & uni teachers.
Any teacher you really dislike or adore?
This morning as I was listening to Flyfm, there was this caller saying that he failed F5 5 times just to stay back in that school. The reason was that his school have many HOT teachers! As far as I can remember, my primary, secondary or F6 teachers were pretty biasa sahaja. :P
And there was this caller, he called his teacher to make a confession. A confession saying she have a great leg!! Another caller called to tell that he had a crush on his English teacher. His English teacher was being great and gave him extra class in her house. In the end, he married his English teacher’s daughter.
Do you all have any interesting stories?
I was once a teacher’s pet during my kindergarten and primary 1 & 2. She knew my mommy. My mommy’s friend. Her name is Puan Lee Kah Hoi. ( Crap..I don’t remember her name…but pronunciation is something like that.)
There is another teacher we gave a nickname: ET. I guess anyone from the same school as me during the primary will know him. Hehehe. And he married a teacher from the same school too. Her name is BBQ. Ehehehe. We are so mean. Giving names to teachers. But I think it’s pretty mild. :P
Well I just want to wish all teachers: HAPPY TEACHER’S DAY!
My friend told me these funny differentiation she read from the paper.
The difference between man & woman.
When a woman:
Is thin: She is called slim.
Is fat: She is called voluptuous.
Is tall: She is called model.
Is short: She is called petite.
When a man:
Is thin: He is called skinny.
Is fat: He is called a pig.
Is tall: He is called bamboo.
Is short: He is called rat. ( The rat part I don't get it why, it's suppose to be in Chinese. The article she read.)
Ooo…there is another thing which I was pretty happy (that time when it happened). My sister have approved my bracelet pricing which is pretty affordable and I’ll be going crazy doing them in 2 months. I probably will be blinded by July. Hahahaha…that’s a bit exaggerating though. Wait.. wait…I haven’t include another different pattern of bracelet I promise her. >__< Need to get all my stocks before I can do. Hmmm…need a driver. Any volunteer?
I’m ending this nonsense with:
To increase your effectiveness, make you emotions subordinate to your commitments
- Brian Koslow.
I don’t think it’s going to end yet. I totally agree with the phrase. For me I interpret this phrase as: You need to like and enjoy what you do to increase your effectiveness towards your commitments. Like and enjoy is like emotions. Well not all the time you are able to enjoy or like your commitments. Commitment comes in many different packages. It could be your job, responsibilities as a colleague, parent, child, sibling, friend, loans and load more.
You get what I mean. Let it be anger, sadness or happiness, it somehow can make commitment be accomplished. Sometimes with anger, you need to channel it to something positive…would that be a positive anger?...is there such thing as positive anger?
Well never mind, putting all the anger to achieving your commitment can be done. For example, when I get angry at certain person for belittling me, I will prove to them I can do something great.
See..channeling the negative anger to a positive one. We just need to stay positive no matter how tough and sucky life can be.
I guess everyone knows bout Facebook. Ok ok..almost everyone.
You can add tons of applications and fiddle around for awhile before getting bored of them. I was once addicted to Facebook but I got over that phase. Used to have many applications but deleted them when I found it to be boring.
I just join a group name "Lish". It’s a lady selling her costume jewelleries. From necklaces to earrings to..thats all I think. >__< BLOODY expensive!!! I almost fainted when I saw the prices. But it’s really pretty!! I got to know this group from my sis. She also another kaki Facebook.
Hmmm..it does give me ideas to make some interesting costume jewelleries.^__^
What I meant was: MONEY! To visit places, you need money, right?
RIGHT!!
I so wish to travel around Malaysia, Sabah & Sarawak! Many beautiful islands to discover and not to forget food, food & FOOD!! And the amazing sceneries from the kampong sites to beautiful beaches and night light of cities. In order to capture all the moments, camera will be the best tool. But what if you don’t have a camera? You need to get one which means you need mohney!! I know you probably would suggest to get a cheap camera but I don’t want to get a low end camera. I want a camera that can serve me for a long time. And I like canon or Nikon brand camera!
I was reading a blog yesterday. This blogger was travelling around the Asian countries. She went to Laos, Bangkok, Vietnam, Pulau Sipadan and probably many more places! She is not even working!! She is still a student but she is doing part time jobs. She uses her own mohney to travel! And she bag-pack. That’s a good way for tight budget travelers. I dare not bag-pack alone. She does it alone! BRAVE dudette! Oh yah…her Pulau Sipadan pictures are gorgeous!! I SO WANT TO GO THERE!!! The water is super clear! And I want to participate in Vietnam CNY! You know why? I heard that their CNY celebration is for a week and many activities are done! Unlike here..pretty quiet. I want to join Water festival in Thailand! Damn! So many things! I need to save my mohney! And I don’t care, by this year I’m going to Pulau Redang!! I’m going …I’m GOING!!
Okie okie..don’t get to emo! Hehehehe. Well, the person I was mentioning is Nicole. She is in my list of bloggers. Check out her blog.
Did you know yesterday was Earth Day? On the 22th April 2008. I only knew that when I was listening to the radio.
Did you all do anything to make it worth while? Like not using the car but uses the public transport? Or try to use less paper?
I didn’t do much about anything. I’m always using the public transport. I recycle my papers in the office. That’s the only thing that I do. Oh another thing, you know the tissue papers have a few layers right? I always pull out the layers and not use everything in a go. Usually I’ll pass the extra and give it to my sister whenever we are out for dinner or lunch. Hehehe. A way of using less tissue. The best would be using handkerchief. Besides, I’m not a hanky type of girl. :)
Well, it’s really sad to see when people uses tissue paper like it’s free. Especially when you go to public toilets. I wonder how many rolls of papers are wasted to dry hands. And and…when air con is turn on to the full blast in office. Hello!! This is Malaysia..not UK. We don’t need freezing cold environment. Wasting electricity. SIGH!!
The list goes on and on. People please try to save. Not for you now but for our own future!
It's nearing the end of March. Damn fast. Two weeks back..don't really remember what happened during the weekdays except during the weekends. My sista..eldest..got married! Finally!! >__<>
