In a confused state.

Have you been in a very confused state and feel like breaking down and feel as if you can't find the solution to your questions?
I'm in this situation for almost a week. It is all because of the word: JOB!!
Silly right? Yeah but I have so many things to consider. I got a job offer but I don't know IF I should just take the offer. But I was advised not to take up the job. >___<

ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHh!!BLOODY STUPID FUCKING CONNECTION OF STREAMYX IS GIVING ME HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE... >__<

Tiring tiring day..

Why am I feeling sooooooo tired? Let's see what I did today. Got up at 8am..called granny..needed to tell her some stuffs..then got got ready for an interview at Wisma Goldhill...about 1pm..rushed to UM to help sis in a seminar..as a photographer again...she fetched me back. So why am I feeling so tired?

Does this indicate that I'm getting old? >_<

Yesterday..I met up with my buddies for dinner. Had been a LONG time since we had dinner together. Really missed the crazy time. We played crazy game...each of us came up with a questions...something like truth or dare but we only used the truth part..and we came up with many silly questions and we were laughing our heads off. ^____^ Such wonderful time.

Oh..my eyes

Hmmm..my eyes are in pain coz I've been watching too much TV...hehehe..been watching Tricks ..done with Season 1...continued watching Trick movie..after that season 3 of Trick. What happen to S2?..my sis brought back with her. >_<

Series marathon

Yup...I'm on a mission to watch Japanese series. My sis bought it...and I've watched 3 episodes so far. Title of the series I'm watching is Trick. It's something like Ghost Hunt. A Japanese anime I've watched sometime back. The anime is pretty cool.

Trick have a bit of the same storyline. A girl (Naoko Yamada) who is a magician (not the real magician coz she does those normal tricks) was fired by her boss...but before her boss fired her, he ask her to find this guy (Ueba-san) whom he will reward anyone that is a real magician. She went there coz in need of the money. Manu tahu she was actually asked to go on a mission to prove this lady (Big Mother) whom she claim is a paranormalist. Naoko's dad used to be a magician but was killed. Naoko never believes in magic and she is always trying to prove any paranormalist that they aren't real. That's the very basic storyline.

Me back to my marathon! Have a cool weekend. As I get my eyes blur.. @_@

Hot hot temper.

Nope not me...even though I've been having mood swing...it's not me having that hot cili padi temper. >_<

My sister was super pissed off with her clients. She had her reasons to be super pissed off. I would too if I was in her position. Sometimes when a person reaction or way of doing things can make us very pissed off. But before reaching the pissy off stage..it would be the irritated and getting very impatient with the persons doing. I just don't get it, why can't people do things a little faster than to take their own sweet time (but this doesn't imply to anyone that does their work in a speed of light..you know what I mean). I prefer to get things done fast but perfectly...not chin chai work okie. I can't tahan slow workers. Thats what got my sister totally pissy and still in her pissy mood. So if you are a slow worker..please buck up a little and try not make others wait for you and waste their time just because you have so much time in hand.

I haven't gone into people that is not punctual. Well I better not get into that. Hope her pissy-ness have gone away. :P

Boredom

Boredom can actually leads to many things. When I'm bored, I'll surf the net, listen to my fave music and while listening to music...many thoughts will pour into my mind. Usually my thoughts are influenced by the type of music I'm listening. So my thoughts will be sad..sad..and more sad thoughts. Thinking of the past incidents that had happened. Had been very emotional the past weeks. Like I'm having PMS everyday. >_<

Heart is a very weak thing. So easily bruised and hurt by simple things. But thats when a person let things get into them easily. Right? Yeah..thats what I believe. If a person thinks too much or put too much hope in anything they do. I'm a person that somehow will put much hope in everything that I do or like. Sometimes it can be very heart breaking when things doesn't turns out according I hope for. Been through that path many times and still going through the same path. When my friend is in despair...I'll always say don't give up hope yet because things will be better. But how would one know that there is hope for that situation they have been through so many times will be ever better? I'm beginning to doubt my own advise to my friend. Or is it a way of learning the nature of life? A way to be stronger mentally and spiritually? I seriously hope that whatever I've been through helps me in the future. It did make me a stronger person. But at the same time, make me afraid of certain things. I know that everyone have their own set of problems...let it be tiny or huge. IF the person have a strong mind...nothing can fall and give up. As for my small or big (depending on how you define the size of your own problems) problems...I for sure will not give up and even if I have to go through the same path...I'll make a wise decision for every problem. Regrets doesn't help anyone at all.

What a weird way of starting an opening blog. Songs sure do influence ones mood. :)