Feeling sleepy but unable to sleep.
Aiyoh...sakit kepala (headache)
It's such a beautiful song.
I'm hanging on to another day...
With a broken heart...
There is healing...
In the end I find meaning.
Im holding on, Im still holding...Barely holding on to you...
...got the above sentences from the song: Broken, Lifehouse.
I wanna JERIT (scream)!!
Arrggghhh.
JERITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!
Too much things in my blardy brain. I wanna delete them. Why isn't there a delete button?
Happy songs are not helping at all.
Having mood swing.
Feeling down.
Everything seems to come crashing down at the same moment.
During this time, I really wonder, do I really have true friends. I think most of them are superficial.
No point feeling sad for this matter, but I can't help it.
Sigh.
Another great song from AAR (All American Rejects): The wind blows.
Sad and emo song.
You know sometimes when a person advise you on certain stuffs, it doesn't leave you any impact in your brain.
But when a certain person gives the advise, oh man, suddenly you feel it's time to do it and take action.
Why is that so? I have no idea. Maybe the person meant something or it could be solely due to the time and moment the advise was give.
It's time to do it and not prolong it much further. No regrets.
Is it easy for a good girl to go bad?
Is it possible once a good girl gone bad, there is not turning back??
Am listening to Rihanna's song. Good girls gone bad. A sad song.
I just wish some people can just stop talking.
Stop making situation worst.
Stop giving pressure.
Stop pretending.
Stop comparing.
Stop everything!!
JUST FUCKING STOP IT!! (dont bother asking)
When you thought the people you know for some period of time, you could treat them like friends as you have been spending most of your time with them.
Eg: working or studying. When working or studying, you are very likely to spend at least 6-8 hours of your day with them. Right?
Unfortunately, not everyone treats you like a friend eventhough time spent together is that much. Likely they just treat you as colleagues or uni mates or school mates. Nothing more than. Period.
I just got knock with the above fact. Feeling really silly and disappointed.
Not the first time when this happened to me. Maybe I just need to get knock a few times before the fact got into me. I had most likely pass the first knock without realise. Thinking it's nothing major. But after a few incidents, it got into me.
A real big D for me.
I guess it is always better to just put a line there. Don't cross it.
Or maybe I'm just not the same wave length with them. I think that is likely the fact.
Just need to put a mask when with these people. Or the best solution, remain before the line. Then no Big D awaits you.
I just realise I'm afraid of many things.
From a tiny flying cockroach to height phobia.
I'm afraid of floating in the sea. As I'm unable to touch the ground.
I'm afraid unable to foresee the future. Duh! That's why it's known as future.
I'm afraid of exams.
I'm afraid of failing and disappointing other people but not myself. It's like I'm living my life for the sake of others.
I'm afraid I'll turn into a selfish and materialistic bitch.
I'm afraid being alone even though on surface I've many friends.
I'm realise I don't like complicated relationships but it's part of the parcel.
I want to share but currently I'm unable to find the person to tell the whole thing. I want to be able to put my real face. Unfortunately that can't be done. I think the only time I'm able to let out the real me is when I'm alone and surrounded by strangers. That's when you don't care about the strangers judgment.
I'm a two-face human.
How? Many times a person would ask a question starting 'how'. The word sometimes irritate me a lot. How are you? How is life? How is everyone? But I frequently ask the how question whenever I see someone.
Do you realise when we answer the how question. The answer somehow is the same everytime or we never give the true statement to it.
Eg: How are you? I'm fine/good/great. --> But the truth is, it's not really good or great at all. Fine/great/good is like we had summaries the whole day and deleting the bad stuffs and it looks fine. So we said: I'm fine. Maybe it's just me.
Or maybe I don't want to say all the stuffs in mind (bad or good) to a person we hardly meet or anyone we meet/talk through any form of communication. The person might think I'm a freak or a total mess.
The how question is usually asked for the sake of asking or for courtesy. It's also the best way to start any form of communication. Right?
Usually we get the how from a hie-bye person or a person we seldom meet but had a good history back during the younger times. The answer for this how for me is never entirely true. I'll just scope the surface of my life and say the typical answer: I'm fine/Busy with work. Selfish person I am.
So please try to ask less how. And don't ask other people's life how are they when in fact I seldom talk about them. Too many hows make me sick. Hmmm...maybe I should start doing that myself.
Well well... most girls love shopping. There are some exceptional ones. I'm kind of the type that sometimes get stuck with shopping when the mood and ka-ching are there side by side.
When the book: The confession of shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella was to be made into movie, I was a bit skeptical. I've read the book very long ago. I love the whole series of the confession of a shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella. Watched the trailer and had the 'hmmm moment', meaning-' This movie might be worth watching'. This movie was released in March 2009.
Most of the time when a movie is made based on a fiction book, it is quite a disappointment. One of it is: The Devil Wears Prada. I was hoping the movie will be as funny as the book but unfortunately it didn't reach my expectation. Back to the movie: The confession of a shopaholic, I've learnt my lesson not to set a high bar for it, afraid that it's another failure movie based on a book. However, I was wrong, the movie was very funny, I love the way Isla Fisher played Rebecca Bloomwood. Luke Brandon could be more cute but Hugh Darcy is not too bad. ^__^
It's not a must watch movie. It's a weekend type of movie. A chill-laxing type of movie. Go get the DVD if you don't have anything better to do during this weekend.
There are quite a number of good songs in this movie too. One of it is: Stuck with each other (click on it to watch the video) by Shontelle ft Akon. This song is played at the very end of the movie. A very sweet song. Goes out to all lovebirds.
Stuck with each other lyrics:
You can think you can get free
You think you won’t need me
That you’re gonna get you somethin’ better
But you know that we’re in this forever
And you can think you can walk out
Even with your doubts
But you know that we’re in this together
You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it, baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin you can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)
Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there
Tell myself that I’ll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya
and I can try to convince you
I don’t need to be with you
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya
What can I do, love is like glue
There’s no way to
Tear us a part
Cause it’s too late (too late, too late)
There’s no escape, might as well face it
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
Ain’t nothin i can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)
There’s nothing i’d rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can’t think of nothing better
Than to be stuck with you
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah
Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin I can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(Stuck in love with each other)
Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Ain’t nothin gonna stop me and you eh
Cause you know we just stuck like glue eh
Ain’t nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other
Awesome song. LOVE IT!!
The moon is pretty huge, round and bright. Looks gorgeous. Even the morning sky was really beautiful today. Right now the air is really hot and stagnant.
I'm currently back at hometown. Using my younger bro's laptop. My 2nd's sis's pc had 'mati' a few months ago. Celcom broadband connection is pretty slow. Loading a page takes forever. *Sigh*
The only thing that is running to my mind is: IT IS BLOODY HOT!! It's draining away my energy.
Made me not in the mood to study and read my book for my coming exam. Hmmm. So screw. Still have 3 more chapters to read.
Been falling asleep on the sofa in the morning and after lunch. Hehehe... Best medicine is to read a boring book and soon will lead you to la la land. I'm actually feeling sleeping now too. Damn. I can't be sleeping off my weekend.
Yeah Monday is a off for me. Took leave to be a good girl to study for my exam. Can't be a lazy bum.
Long absence due to work. Finally I'm getting my break to go to Redang! YES!!!
Hopefully I'll be back with much beautiful energy. Compare to now, I'm radiating bad energy force.
I have a new song from Pink.
It's : Please don't leave me.
An emo song. Somehow I feel the song. Makes me feel sad.
Here is the lyrics. No video for the song yet.
Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da da-da da
Do you know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
da da da da-da
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is....broken
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry.
Da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please, please don't leave me
Baby please don't leave me
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back,
It's gonna come right back to this.
Please, don't leave me.
No.
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
Here is how the song sound like. Please dont leave me.
Here is another song I love to share with you all. Maybe I'm a little late discovering this song, but what the heck.
It's by the Plain White T's. Yup the group that brought us Hey there Delilah. This song: 1,2,3,4 is DAMN sweet. The MTV is sweeter!! It sweeten you to the core. *Sigh!* This song is out in 2008 album. I didnt know that coz I'm not a fan of Plain White T's. I'm not a fan of any group or singer.
Here is the link to the video of 1,2,3,4
The title is actually from a song. Here is another song which I fell in LOVE with recently. Came across this group video clip in MTV and it totally made me feel happy (ok not suppose to be be happy, but the song makes me feel like dancing) and feet goes tapping.
I don't think Malaysia radio station played this song yet. The song: What is happening? (click the title and ship straight to the video clip in You Tube) by Alphabeat. A band (of 6) fr0m Denmark. I think they are more well known in UK. I guess they havent break through US or Asia yet.
Here is the lyrics: What is happening.
Oh, when I said I need you so much
I was dead,
I was alive when you were right here by my side,
We both could see
that I needed you, you needed me,
And now we both regret,
Regret what we said.
Oh, when I said I need you so much
I was dead,
I was alive when you were right here by my side,
We both could see
that I needed you, you needed me,
And now we both regret,
Regret what we said.
When we said,
Don't you ever come back,
Don't you ever come,
Don't you ever come back,
Don't you.
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening?
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening?
So whose fault is it anyway,
Don't say,
We don't know,
We both know that we made a mistake,
It's hard to live together forever,
Well, that's what they say,
We still regret what we said,
What we said.
So whose fault is it anyway,
Don't say,
We don't know,
We both know that we made a mistake,
It's hard to live together forever,
Well, that's what they say,
We still regret what we said,
What we said.
When we said,
Don't you ever come back,
Don't you ever come,
Don't you ever come back,
Don't you.
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening?
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening?
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh
Oh, when I said I need you so much
I was scared,
I was alive when you were right here by my side,
We both could see
that I needed you, you needed me,
And now we both regret,
Regret what we said, yeah yeah yeah.
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening? (hey!)
Don't go out tonight,
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you,
What is happening? (what is happening?).
Don't go out tonight, (no)
Baby can't you see,
What is happening to you, (yea-yea-yea-yea-yea-yea-yea-yea-ih-yeah)
What is happening?
Don't go out tonight, (no)
Baby can't you see, (don't go)
What is happening to you,
What is happening? (what is happening?).
Love it (the song) or hate it? I'll say LOVE IT!!
This blog have not been colourful enough. So I'll be uploading some pictures (ok maybe 2 pictures) I took.
I guess it is a easy guess. I HEART the yellow bear. Looks like Tous bear right?
Disappeared for almost 2 months. Jesse McCartney have a new song. I'm NOT a fan of his. Never really like his song except for his latest featuring Ludacris: How do you sleep? I love the beat and the tune of the song. The video clip is not out in You Tube yet but you can browse through to listen to the song. You won't regret it.
Here is the lyric:
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep
How do you sleep?
Tried my best at movin' on
Have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before
Now wishin' I had more time with you
How do you stay awake
Knowin' all I do is think of you
All the things we thought about
Then, never will happen again
If I could just see you
If I had my way come and get you girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you, how do you sleep?
Found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep?
Baby all that I hear from my friends
Again again and again come and ask 'bout you
They say, "We saw your girl at the game
And damn we gotta say a big mistake by you"
Not only does your body bang
But I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you're gettin' more sleep
Can't think, can't eat till I come see you
If I had my way come and get you girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Remember 'round my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you, how do you sleep?
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep?
How do you sleep?
Look
Now it's been about a year and Im tryin' to figure out
How could ya?
Forget about who loves you the most
Why would ya?
Heal my heart, heal my brain
Oh how I wish you could feel my pain
Cuz I couldnt get you off my mind if I tried
24/7, 365
And my night's so cold, day's so long
They say you don't know what you got til it's gone
When it's gone and I'm trippin how much I miss it
And you're steady walkin 'round like I never existed
And it's hard to understand, you gotta another plan
Tryin' to play hard and you got another man
But you'll never find another like moi
How you ridin' round in your drop-top car
Baby you're star and it's time that you know it
So much love and it's time now we show it
LUDA
It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you, how do you sleep?
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep?
[x2]
So have you listen to it yet?
